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| 02:45am 11/07/2005 |
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mood:  content music: Explosions in the Sky - Remember Me as a Time of Day
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I worked today, than I went to village Inn with my dad and we talked. I have been contemplating me and kristin and life and all these things swarming through my head. What else is ther to say? life is such a process, learning is all that anyone can hope for. If life becomes a product of the compliance with what we do not want, than what we want will become the mold of what we have never wanted. Its a scary process that is indifference |
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| A changeover |
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| 02:50am 09/07/2005 |
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mood: devious music: Shai Hulud - Two and Twenty Misfortunes
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Life is always changing. My philosophy is not a thing of need. I can nly hope that within my life I will discover the style I represent. Trends, Corporote dronings. Continous pressure to fall into the line that so many others have. the wanning want to continue my exsistence without much of a plan. The plan that will decree my exsistence. The continuos spectrum of life, loves change. You can rely on a love as much as you want and it can instantly be falsified. Yes many of you have heard. Kristin left and is liviing in Ft. Collins Colorado. I am indiffernet. The life I lived was always an interesting adventure. I could never fully understand my purpose. I was led to belive that my life had become the product of anothers. I had a major say and stake and hope in it all, yet I was with myself in hoping to discover more thoughts to assure my choices. My life since Kristin has left. Consisted mainly so far of my family reunion, an uncontrollable variable. On this reunion Kristin, and I spoke many times. The ending consensus was that it had failed and that mainly I had done many things wrong. I think that I did many many things wrong in the relationship. It was a combination of so many things. Relationships declare a sole end to the life you thoght you had. Unless the word "open" is the main part of the structure of a relationship than many problems will ensue.
On more positive notes. Recently I have been spending large amounts of time with friends that I had fallen away from in the last 9 months. Staying up late and enjoying the serenade of randomness. Randomness to occupy the empty space of life that we all feel. The space that decrees things harder than ever. In this life we live we can only hold onto things that love without the barriers of questions. A love that can understand the speculative wonderings of a person plauged with the thought of unknown past the truth of life. Fear of the day that lies beyond. Fear of the continous life that will become true if no action is taken. Tomorrow is the only thing in life I can count on. The past days have faltered on the hope of a new ideal. Love is nowhere near enough in some situations. |
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| life is strange |
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| 03:50am 27/06/2005 |
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mood:  depressed music: Chicks On Speed - Little Star
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life is very diffucult , all I want is success and hope... I receive horrible sad things. Life is splendid until realization sets in. Its a sad thing. |
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| LOVE LOVE LOVE |
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| 09:03pm 15/05/2005 |
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I just needed to make a dedication of one journal to how much I love kristin.
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| dedicate this journal to the >250,000 people who are DEAD from the tsunami in indonesia. |
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| 01:11am 29/12/2004 |
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music: Mae - Giving It Away
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yay- i like life. its really ok. Sooooo the other day(christmas eve i belive) i went and got some friends gifts from the dollar store, it was an appeasing experience, realizing how much you can do for peopel for such a small amount of money... yah.. ANd my krisitn came home from evil colorado, I also want to dedicate this journal to the >90,000 people who are DEAD from the tsunami in indonesia. its amazing how fast life can change so much. Really helps me to realize the meaning of why being happy is about way more than just being happy, its about us having everything, because we do, here in the USA we have everything, but an earthquake would bring us to our knees just as quickly as it would a "third world" country "over ther" as we would say. Everyone should find love. I found love and its led me to happiness, and soooo sooo much more. Dreams are real, people need to re acknowledge faith in real things, like change, the world needs to find a way to understand change, understand real faith, faith with reason. Is christ born or is JCpenny banking? its a question you should ask yourself. Why wont peopel wake up from the commutes they are given too! hear the vacuum in the music. Hear the voice in the back of their heads, the one telling them to change, and to wake up. Some day the world will learn, some day i will learn. thanks for reading my drivel :). |
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| wow... |
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| 02:28am 04/12/2004 |
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mood:  drunk music: Tears For Fears - Head Over Heels / Broken (Live)
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isnt this fun chris? arent you having fun... |
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| long time... since i post. |
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| 10:50pm 28/11/2004 |
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mood: good music: Audience of one - Audience of one - track ten
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yep its been forever since i have ljed. BUt i jsut want everyone to know... this is my honey-> and she is the greatest thing in the world. My life is so happy with her.
/chris |
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| Im way happy cause kristins mine. ( one of my tonsils is a little fucking mace) |
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| 12:20am 31/10/2004 |
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mood:  sick music: Engine Down - secondoffebruary
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Yay! YAY! yay for chris, he is not emotionally stifled anymore. ooooga! isnt it fun. I love this. I found a girl i can do everything with. she sees the world the way i do... just thought i would share this..
NOW for the RANT about how fucking shitty this is being all sick like this...I wake up two mornings ago and my throat feels as if some kind of golf ball has entered it. felt shitty since then.. if i look into my throat one of my tonsils is all big and white.. its gross. But everythings still good i suppose. The docter said it might be mono.... so that will be fun
this is a new photo i made http://www.deviantart.com/view/11866823/
ok good night all, i sleep with a happy heart and mind tongiht, just an unhappy throat hehe. |
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| 12:45am 10/10/2004 |
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mood: cheerful music: The Postal Service - This Place Is A Prison
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http://profiles.myspace.com/users/4304813
Well, just as soon as the world becomes broken lyrics of attempted sophistication good thigns do happen, even if it is not good that comes. At least it is new, new things in life are the only possible way to achieve new emotions. Excaping my common emotion is enough to help me by and survive another day. |
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| burn up. |
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| 05:44pm 08/10/2004 |
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mood:  apathetic music: No Use For A Name - Pride
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... so much to do yet nothing is the best, meaningless livejournals.. all fade into normal meaningless others. It really never becomes more exciting than it is. I can find places to slip.. devote your life to a cause, or forget about it. Know or forget, have it complete or completly wrong. As much as the world can change it will always be the same. |
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| i am a vegan. |
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| 05:19pm 26/09/2004 |
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mood:  accomplished music: Death Cab For Cutie - Expo '86
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I would just like to inform everyone, I have made the decison to become vegan, you should ask me why so you can understand the things they do to the poor animals that were eating. SURE, there are those who say my vegan ideal will not last, BUT i do know that i have control over what i eat. I know I will not misss some of those thigns.
http://www.petatv.net/mpg/mym2002.zip
ok.. today i went on a photography adventure, downtown to the big cool library. I took arcitecture phtos, then i went to the relgion section and got 6 books on diff relegious things. then i went to my car and drove around forever looking for a place to park by these churchs that are old enough for me to use as "old buildings" then i got out took pictures of them. Now i am home. thats it. |
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thec's journal
but isnt she still jsut the cutest girl ther IS! then kristin told me stand where it was preety and sneakily took this photo of me 
